toolazy…
i like doing things, but i'm just so-dang-lazy.Archive for the good list
i want.
I was hitting a major writing block in the last two weeks, but yesterday, I had a thought, “It’s not about if you’re good enough, it’s about how much you want it.”
That pretty much drove me to write the truth with my soul and strength behind it. After weeks of writing crap, weak, non-confident crap, I finally broke through to what I want.
I have a new plan. See if I can get what I want with what I have, if not, try again in February. I needed a break and really think about it. When I was writing, I realized what it was about. I want it, I can do it, and it just doesn’t matter if I’m good enough (which I am), it’s about trying.
So, I figured it out.
ha ha
That and I’m no longer PMS-ing. Whoa Nelly. I really hate being a girl sometimes.
So, wish me luck. I’m no longer going for the craziness, but something that it totally reasonable and all I need. Plus, I get to be closer to my honey if I go there!
early morning win
y’know, as long as i go to the gym before work, it’s a winning day.
but, today was a good day. i got a lot done at work (mailing almost a thousand pieces) and i studied after work.
and i’m spent.
i still have to work on my latest draft of my essay, but so far, i’ve done a lot.
just remember awesome.
i’m thinking vacay soon. excited about that.
can’t wait for bf time.
i wish i had friends, but at least i have bf and fam here.
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Today
I had to go to the post office today. I was dreading it because Bulk Mail may be cheaper, but it’s so much harder!
Luckily, my giant coworker helped me, for safety-sake (he’s in H.R.). It was super helpful.
My car did not get hit by a big rig this time and I got Starbucks after my excursion.
Plus a cousin told me I’m smart.
Like J said, I could be laughing at myself ten years from now when I’m married with kids and a lawyer.
Studying is my way to the future….let’s hope I have the cojones for it all.
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list of goodness.
Friday:
Boyfriend. Me. Chinese Food. We finished Buffy season four. Awesome! Who knew, that a year later, we’d be just another old couple eating Chinese take out and watching DVD’s? we are so exciting.
Saturday:
Brunch with A. Homefries, sausage and coffee. YUMMY. It was a gorgeous day in my town and I was able to get a cool (green) toy for my Godson.
Baby shower. Yummy food.
Cousin’s house. UFC (?). Cupcake? Yes. Sleepovers.
Sunday:
Godson’s birthday party. Independence Day. Food! Family! Bonfire. Sleepovers. “Are you leaving?” “Maybe.” “No, don’t leave.” Thank you four-year old, makes me feel good.
Monday:
Scenic route. Home for a bit. Foggy beach day with cousins. Amusement park. Burritos. Kettle korn. Hanging with cousins and the kids. Fun times. 
And I’m spent.
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First thoughts do not rule my life
I have a horrible habit of letting my negative first thoughts rule my life. My boyfriend has taught me that I cannot control my first thoughts, but I can control my second thoughts. My second thoughts cannot be negative anymore.
I am not a dumb, horrible person, but human and constantly changing.
Life is like the Amazon, it keeps flowing (I sure hope that river is flowing). Sure, there are crappy things in the river, like, literally, poo, but there are also beautiful things like flowers, amazing creatures. (I’m going to have to leave this metaphor soon because I really don’t know enough about the Amazon.)
So, positive spin. Control my second thoughts. It’s like that movie, ‘Yes Man.’ Confession: I did not see the movie.
BUT, wasn’t the whole deal about him saying “Yes,” to everything. I’ve done that since 2004. I wanted to make a change and have adventures.
So this is my new adventure.
Positive me.
I will create a positive spin on my life. I will change what I can and work on myself when I cannot. I will control my second thoughts.
good deed.
as i was searching for parking near my work, i saw a state park ranger (i work near a state park/station) driving towards me on the narrow street with his passenger door open!
he moved a little over to the right (yes, towards parked cars) because i was driving by him. and then…
BOOM!
he stopped on the middle of the street and got out with a confused face and gesturing. at this time, i already passed him three time (i really couldn’t find any parking).
by the time i got to the office, the ranger was gone. i memorized his face and part of his license and figured i could find him easily because my work faces his work.
i go up to my work and tell my coworker about it and then realize that it might have been her car that was hit.
so, we go outside to inspect the car and yes, it was hit! (not bad at all)
we walk over to the station and tell the ranger (because i memorized his face) and told him what happened.
he had no idea that his door was open and thought someone threw something at his car!
he cleaned up the damage, but they found more damage and had to call the state police.
by this time, i was starting work (at 10:30 a.m.), but then, i had to talk to the officer because i was the witness.
thank you very much
so that is my story of today. i figured i did a good thing.
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Can’t stop won’t stop
I guess ill be crazy and try again because I WANT THAT JOB. If only it wanted me back.
Why you gotta be so hard?
So goal, back to the grind next week (my brain is already crying about it). This week, work out because I’m just gonna get fat again.
Today:
I worked out. Go me. That’s a big deal. Plus some phone time with my good friend. I miss friends.
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Finally!
Back to working out and being healthy. I was on hiatus with the whole studying thing. Today was my first day back.
I did my usual elliptical and it wasn’t bad at all. I may be hurting later, but right now I feel good that I wasn’t lazy and that I actually went.
AWESOME.
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Weekend
Fri: great dinner with sister. Yum wine and good food!
Sat: farmers market. Bf. Fancy Italian dinner. Ping Pong Playa.
Sun: Filipino festival. Mall time.
Great times!
So tired.
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Awesome
First, I thought I wasn’t a winner today, but after my wonderful boyfriend’s talk about Encyclopedia Brown, I’m leaning towards it.
I want to try.
Thank you sweetness. It’s helped so much.
It’s not that bad.
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