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like i said…
I’m lazy sometimes.
No blogging in the last week because I went to the library and borrowed four books. I have to finish them all in two weeks or else I have to pay a late fee or extend the rental. For some reason, I don’t like extending because, well, I can finish a book a day, maybe even in four hours. If I only didn’t work!
I’m trying to get back into the gym again, but I found out that I have a strained rib (not fractured, thank goodness!). However, it still hurts. Not horrible and I can still do my cardio, but there’s just a mild pain almost all the time on my left side.
I’m trying Joe’s Goals again. Kind of hard because I’m trying to think of what to put on it. Sleep early, get to work on time, etc. What else to add? I should probably ddrink more water because I always forget to do that.
I’m also planning on a few vacations. Maybe across the country or to a different country. Anything would be good. This could be my last year of freedom and I should do something about it. I believe that you don’t regret what you do so much as you do regret the things you don’t do. (Although, I do not regret not going to the math camp in fifth grade.)
So there’s an update.
Just enjoying time with my honey.
list of goodness.
Friday:
Boyfriend. Me. Chinese Food. We finished Buffy season four. Awesome! Who knew, that a year later, we’d be just another old couple eating Chinese take out and watching DVD’s? we are so exciting.
Saturday:
Brunch with A. Homefries, sausage and coffee. YUMMY. It was a gorgeous day in my town and I was able to get a cool (green) toy for my Godson.
Baby shower. Yummy food.
Cousin’s house. UFC (?). Cupcake? Yes. Sleepovers.
Sunday:
Godson’s birthday party. Independence Day. Food! Family! Bonfire. Sleepovers. “Are you leaving?” “Maybe.” “No, don’t leave.” Thank you four-year old, makes me feel good.
Monday:
Scenic route. Home for a bit. Foggy beach day with cousins. Amusement park. Burritos. Kettle korn. Hanging with cousins and the kids. Fun times. 
And I’m spent.
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First thoughts do not rule my life
I have a horrible habit of letting my negative first thoughts rule my life. My boyfriend has taught me that I cannot control my first thoughts, but I can control my second thoughts. My second thoughts cannot be negative anymore.
I am not a dumb, horrible person, but human and constantly changing.
Life is like the Amazon, it keeps flowing (I sure hope that river is flowing). Sure, there are crappy things in the river, like, literally, poo, but there are also beautiful things like flowers, amazing creatures. (I’m going to have to leave this metaphor soon because I really don’t know enough about the Amazon.)
So, positive spin. Control my second thoughts. It’s like that movie, ‘Yes Man.’ Confession: I did not see the movie.
BUT, wasn’t the whole deal about him saying “Yes,” to everything. I’ve done that since 2004. I wanted to make a change and have adventures.
So this is my new adventure.
Positive me.
I will create a positive spin on my life. I will change what I can and work on myself when I cannot. I will control my second thoughts.
not smart.
I’m destined to get fat again and re-gain the twenty pounds I lost.
I’m drinking an iced coffee and eating a chicken and brie sandwich. This doesn’t fit into my diet and will make me go over my calories today.
Oh well. It is one of those days when I drown myself with food instead of friends because I DON’T HAVE ANY.
But that is my problem.
I am ungrateful because I have a place to live, a job, a lovely before, a loving family, etc.
Yet, I feel like I’m just lost and have nothing.
I’m just a weirdo ungrateful brat.
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Home is…
They say, ‘Home is where the heart is.”
But I always wonder where I belong.
Growing up, sometimes I enjoyed the special “minority-ness” it probably helped me get into a good school (or just the fact my school sucked).
When I went away to college, I loved that town. I didn’t love the weather all the time nor the asthma or migraines, but there were things to do and places to see (and friends to hang out with).
There were little moments when I missed home:
- Getting sick,
- Needing rides and not getting rides to the E.R.,
- Family.
Family was the biggest thing. I felt like I was missing things, and when things happened to me, I felt like I didn’t have anybody at my back.
Not that I don’t have family back there, but they weren’t physically close.
So, in my time of sadness, I just said, ‘Eff it,” and moved. I moved quickly. I think I made up my mind on December 12 and by January 6, I was back. Back home.
It was a time of just reflection and rejuvenation.
Now it’s been over a year. I’m back. Is there where I fit in?
I love my hometown, but I’m remembering more and more why I never fit in.
Where is home? Where you grew up? Where you really grew up?
I miss friends and freedom.
I miss doing things on my own. I liked paying bills, I liked eating out without feeling guilt.
ah. oh well.
You look around and there you are.
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sorority life.
so, confession.
i was in a sorority in college.
if you know me, i am not a typical greek girl.
i like espn, bacon-wrapped hot dogs, comedies and non-chick lit/flicks.
anyway.
back in 1998, when i was a lonely transfer student living in a house off-campus, i went to an orientation thing. there were a bunch of girls talking to us new folks and vicky came up to me and asked me to go to the ‘delta rush.’
i didn’t know what that meant, but, she said a key word: ‘Free Food.”
so i went.
who knew that would change my life. i got jobs, made life-long (so far?) friends, and got great experiences from it. i wouldn’t have many of the friends i do today if i never went for the free food.
during my first semester at school, my grandmother died. if i didn’t have my pledge sisters (who really took care of me the day i got back), i probably would’ve transfered back to the state school and finished out there.
i’m glad for my experience.
it’s not all about drinking and boys and silliness. it really is about friendship, life experiences (and some cocktails).
thanks for the memories chicas.
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I love hockey.
The Washington Capitals were the first seed in the Eastern Conference. They had the best record in the NHL in the 2009-2010 season. The Montreal Canadiens were the eighth seed. The Canadiens were down 3-1 out of the best of seven series.
AND THEY WON THREE IN A ROW TO BEAT THE TOP TEAM!
Wow, that’s ridiculous. It’s one of the biggest upsets. Ridiculous. Don’t you love hockey (it actually sucks because that happened to San Jose last year, but after this, it feels a little better and less bitter)?
I can’t believe it.
The Sharks play tomorrow night and are playing against the Red Wings. I’m ridiculously excited and super nervous.
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Past Life Follow-Up.
So, I’m back. I’m back from my quick weekend trip to my old city.
I’ve been there twice since I left the place after ten years, but this was the first time I really tried to meet up with people and see friends.
It was good and fun and…
makes me miss it. Aww.
Apparently, I was a total downer and annoying person in my last year there, but I’d like to think that I’ve changed and those who think that I haven’t…well, I guess I haven’t talked to you in a year and it doesn’t matter what you think because I’m AWESOME.
And things are awesome. But, there are changing. I have another year and then who knows what’ll happen then.
What if I did move back? Eeep. I know that I have some friends who always thought that could happen, but that’d be weird.
Currently, I’m trying to just do my best and I’ll see what happens.
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